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10 years. Has it really been? I was 13 then. By now, I thought I must have moved on. But I'm as beguiled as ever. The annals of my adolescent-hood will always have a special place for the phenomenon of the Boy Who Lived. The last production was the only one when my tears fell. There will be no more looking-forward-to-the-next-HP moments, only remembering and retelling and probably, rereading.  It has reached the end and truly, it was epic.



Vienna: (paraphrase) I want my own Snape!!! Unwavering faithfulness 'til the end. 
Aiken: (post post movie epiphany) Oh of course! I have my own Snape already!  Genuine, faithful and unfailing love - through and through.  'Til death and beyond. Ah Jesus, You are everywhere and indeed, more than just a Severus :)

Hindi ako mapakali kanina. Tatlong araw akong halos nakakulong sa dormitoryo dahil sa bagyo.  Ikatlong araw ngayong walang pasok.  Hindi ako mapakali.  Dapat ay magse-“cell” ako ngayong araw.  Pero dahil sinuspende nga ang mga klase, balik Huwebes na naman ang aming iskedyul. Hindi ako mapakali.  Gusto kong lumabas at pangatawanan ang Acts 20:24.  Ganito pala ‘pag nahanap mo na ang iyong “bakit” sa buhay – hindi ka mapakali hangga’t hindi ito natutupad.  Nawawalan ng saysay ang katuwaang walang pasok.  Pero masarap sa pakiramdam. Pag nakaugat na ito sa sistema mo, hindi mo ito maikakaila.  Pigilan ka ma’y hindi ka papipigil.  Sindakin ka ma’y hindi ka matitinag.

Sa tapat ng Sanggumay ang Kalay, kung saan ako dati’y nanirahan din.  Sa tapat ko ang pangarap na magtanim ng bunga sa unibersidad na ito.  May pangarap ako sa eskwelehan sa kung saan ako itinalaga ng tadhana – mas malayo, at tila’y dayuhan kung ako’y ituring. Ngunit ang puso ko’y tumitibok pa rin sa paaralang nagpalaki sa akin, sa institusyong kinamulatan ko ng katotohanan na akin ngayong minumutya.  Higit diyan ay ang aking pamamalagi dito.  Sapat na bang kadahilanang isipin na hindi ako pumasa para lamang mangatwira’y tinutupad nga Niya ang mga pangarap kundi dahil may itinakda pang gawaing kailangang tapusin sa pamantasan?  Dati’y dalangin lamang, ngayo’y ramdam ko ang tibok ng puso. UP, para kanino ka nga ba lumalaban? Panahon na para isakatuparan ang iyong pahinungod na buong puso’y alay sa bayan.  Ngayo’y dagdagan natin nang mas makapangyarihan: pahinungod para sa Diyos at para sa bayan.

Ako’y namulat, ika’y gigisingin.  Walang kapahingahan hangga’t ika’y tunay ngang makamtan.
After almost two years struggling to write you, I finally did.  Because your image to me is now clear - a faithful faceless silhouette.  I am very much tempted to post it, but it's too personal I think you deserve exclusive rights over it.

And as I write this, the same song that played in the background almost 4 years ago when I wrote you my first one is playing - happenstance or what?

Two things I want to tell you though that the world may know: I'm sorry. And I believe in you - more than ever. Now more than ever.



'Til then,

Aiken


Lovers don't finally meet somewhere, they're in each other all along. - Rumi

Summer: You weren't wrong, Tom. You were just wrong about me.


Summer: I woke up one morning and I just knew. 
Tom: Knew what? 
Summer: What I was never sure of with you


 Joseph Gordon-Levitt's just real cute. :)

xoxo

It’s not just Tuesdays, actually. It’s just that Tuesdays are the BUSIEST of my busiest days.

Here's a peek of my daily academic agenda (this week):

I start off Monday studying the whole morning and early afternoon for Public International Law because I have a class 3:30 on that subject.  Then I try to study for 3 major subjects for the rest of the night ‘til the wee hours, with digesting cases in between ‘til my hands are sore.

Hello Tuesday. I wake up and do my not so routinary morning routine and start with Constitutional Law at 10 am. Quiz day. We end at 12 noon. I a grab quick “lunch”, print digests, and try to speedily review and go over cases for Labor Law and Criminal Procedure.  Labor starts at 3:30 and end at 5. I get called for recitation – as expected. But it’s all good. Professor gives a "surprise" quiz. Then I literally dash to my Criminal Procedure class which starts at 5. My stomach grumbles but I brush it off. I feel my energy escape me.  Then I get called again, lo and behold – after getting called the previous meeting. I didn’t study for this session but amazingly and really amazingly, I winged it. And even thought it was a good one. Thank God. The heavens are on my favor. We end at 8 pm – me drained as an empty bottle.  2 quizzes and 2 recitations in one day. What is SOLID. But my day doesn’t end there, apparently. My adrenaline's still pumping. (Next week, I'll be rushing to some meeting afterwards!)

I go home and try to keep my spirits up.  I grab some sandwich ‘coz I’m on fast (if you don’t get what I mean, don’t bother). I start studying for Agrarian Reform Law for the next day. I'd just have to cram PIL tomorrow. I labor through keeping my eyes open.  I feel dizzy but try to carry on. My body pleads rest, but my mind shouts NO. My eyes are finally giving up on me, so I decide to sleep at 1:30 am finishing only half of the assigned reading list.  I wake up at 5 am and struggle to get out of bed.  I still need to study.  I look up and catch sight of the sign I intentionally posted in front of my bed: Para kanino ka bumabangon? Oh dear Lord. Forgive me. After 30 minutes of struggling, I get up. I try to read what I can still read.  I still didn’t finish everything though. But, hello Wednesday!

Class started at 8 – an hour earlier than usual to make-up for a free cut.  I pray desperately not to get called. I don't want to give less than my best! Miraculously, my professor skipped my name when I was next one on the list. What is FAVOR, indeed! I rush back to the dorm to cram for my 3:30 PIL class but found myself dozing off.   My body just totally auto-switched to REST.

Let's end there. Thursdays to Saturdays are another crazy thing. :)

And guess what, law school’s just a chunk of this fullness. Still, it’s all good, y know.  Actually getting better and better. All credits to my super duper Jesus.

P.S.
Maybe next time, I'll share the happening-in-betweens (i.e., family, ministry, extra-curriculars, and what have you).

Just sharing.

xoxo